xx

Sunday, July 19, 2009

I know i haven't posted about birthday, but soon soon! I just need the time and energy to.

School's draining, even though we're free from other commitments like CCAs and shit. It's weird. I think it's because we're channelling all out energies to schoolwork which makes school more mentally draining. More mentally draining = just as tired as before. So bullshit i know.

I really really dread school these days. I find myself in classes yet not absorbing anything that is being said. I get more involved in noticing our teachers instead and their behaviour, actions and then laughing about it. People like Mr Friday, Mr Butter Factory........... HAHA. Sigh okay, yes, i'm that bored in class. In class i can literally see my youth slipping away (QY will agree with me on this lor). But i really quite like my classmates and the ge-ges. Funny shitttttttttt. We are practically reliving huan zhu ge ge in our modern era and being damn ridiculously hilarious. And laksa + desert was awesome with the ge-ges as well. I'm going to enjoy all of these before the drudgery of preparing for A's takes it all away....... ):

I think i find myself needing more and more of your reassurance that it gets depressing. I'll push boundaries to see if you'll do anything. I think it was just hyper-imagination on my part. God, make this go away....... PLEASE > ):

cute is what
I aim for too.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

QY HAS FINALLY COME OUT OF HER CAVE!!! She now has internet access. Once she get facebook it'll be damn super fun. Can't wait.

Anyway i'm really thankful for Sunday and all the people who showed up and made it possible because i was seriously clueless and pleasantly surprised ^^ will post about it soon.

I feel happy & fuzzy > :D

cute is what
I aim for too.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

HIHI this is my last day of "quarantine". I got sent home on monday because my temperature went a little high and i had a flu haha joke. But it's alright i'm kind of enjoying it i actually went straight back into holiday mood, slacking away right after i came back from the doc's hehe. It feels a little weird to be at home when all my friends are at school though. Glad i dont have H1N1 though, if not i'd be eating a tamiflu tablet cake on my birthday or something.

But i talk to Reg on the phone at night for updates in school and they always crack me up teehee. Anyway i was told have to pass up vectors tutorials or i'll have to stay back in school to do with Mr Wen ): i conveniently forgot to pass it up 2 months ago and thought i was safe..... until now. Am in deep shit nowxzzzz but i remain optimistic! :D i'll get it done, somehow.....

I know i'm incorrigibly lazy because i'm supposed to be like mugging or something during the "quarantine" but the meds always make my mind fuzzy and i go to sleep, without doing any productive work (excuses excuses....). Anyway am online now to learn how to play the piano accompaniment to "He Knows My Name" and i really think it fails me.... I'm really tempted to pull out as pianist for pei ling hui, which happens on a poor girl's birthday -> ): , because i dont think i can do it. I can't even play it, they should have gotten someone trained to do it. Sigh. It'll be irresponsible of me to pull out at this time thoughzzzz. Sian ttm.

Ok and now i digress from the online tutorial to blog and listen to Cobra Starship on repeat hehe (Y).

Suddenly i feel a little gloomy now. I pick out the imperfections i see, and feel very very very sad. Why?

cute is what
I aim for too.

Friday, June 26, 2009

I can't believe this is the last friday of the hols and here i am, dealing with an awful headache ): Even wearing a hairband to keep my fringe up gives me headache (?!). Wah this is damn sian; I can't enjoy, i can't even mug for econs test. Horrijibleeeeeeee.

Anyway had a good week, i think. I mean, if it hasn't been bad it should be good right? Ok maybe not.

Out with Amanda was great. Sakae buffet was (Y) can't wait for the next time round though i think the next time will prolly be after A's. SIAN. But retail therapy after a longggggggggg time of ice age (HAHA kiddingz) made me feel like i haven't been out in the longest of times. Seriously, Manda's the most impulsive buyer among all my friends by far. No need to think one, scary shit lo. I had fun though. Luv you Manda!

And i watched GOGP twice this week in the last two days of its run. Ok quite lame but i dont think i really regret it. Quite nice, although i didnt cry the second time i watched it because you cant really do so when you know whats coming on. But im kind of glad i watched it twice.

But the spoilers of the week :
1) the foursome dao huey date got cancelled sad ): -MURDERS QY.
2) i dont think/know how i should celebrate my 18th birthday already ):

SO SAD I NEED CHEERING UP NOW ): need to eat some tutu kueh!

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together,
pull it together, together again

cute is what
I aim for too.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Few days ago, i was almost sure it couldnt be. But i'm not so sure now.

HOW, YOU TELL ME HOW NOW BROWN COW ):

cute is what
I aim for too.

Life's been good, i think! Hahaha, while studies took a backseat..... Bad.

My week got better towards the end, though i hung out with pretty much the same people but it was goodyyyyyyy. Subway lunches, self touring around retarded poly, river romance, samsui women & little nyonyas (HAHAHAHA) laughing like shit with the coolezt peoplez.

*
"Eh the chicken breast is which part of the chicken ah"
The other three stone.
Y & I, "YOUR BREAST WHERE"
*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Thats why i love you so much lor.

Caught another movie this week yayz. And will catch Ghosts of Girlfriends Past (FINALLY!) next week after lots of postponing because schedules always clashhhhhhhhh. Sian. But i get this feeling that it'd have ended its run by then...... Please no please ): but there's always Transformers (?).

In any case, i think i'm happy for now. And i hope this happy feeling stayyyyyysssssssss because i find it creeping away ): But hopeful plans tomorrow of sakae buffet + retail therapy + dao huey keep me going :D haven't done something i like in a long long time.

And i'm getting fat. NEED TO RUNNNNNNNNNNNNNN. Bye folks.

And doesn't that sound familiar? Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar, that everyone wants a little more?
So that I do remember to never go that far,
Could you leave me with a scar?

cute is what
I aim for too.

Friday, June 19, 2009

hEEx vVv l0ngg n0 p0stt liiA0 nArrHss. c0shh thiiShh fEww dAeS bZ hEEx.. bEeN sPenddiiNg miiE dErh eBberiidAe wibb dEarDear. iiN sKuu aLs0.. wEEkenD aLs0 niiAxx.. sWiitt bAhhsXz???

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h0ppE tUu gRoW tiLL olD oLd wibBe eUu niiAxX.. tHenn iiE cAnn tEll oUrr gRannDchiiLdrEnn oUrr lUrbbE st()riieSxX.. oRbb h0ww eUu jii0 miie dAtt ttyMm iin dErrH p00ll sHop.. aNdd tHenN eUu cAnn g0 sMoKee att oUrr bAckk p0rChh.. beCoShh eUu sAee niiX tyM eUu wiLL w0rK fErr l0ngg-ger aNdd eArrnn l0ttS orF mUnniE aNdd bUyy 0ur dReAmm bAnggeRloww.. :] :] :] sH00 dUnnChh lYkkE dAtt lErrH bAhhSxX..

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iiE tHiiS fEww dAe.. oRso g0rtt stUDyy niiAx.. bUt iiN clAss g0rt oNe 38 (tRaNslAttE tUu cHiinEsE bAhhSxX).. dUnChh wiiShh tUu sAe nAmmeS niiAs.. wiiL n0rtt g0 tuU hErr leVell dErhsX!! sAee b0rroW myyE bii0 nottEs.. tHenn in tHe eNdd sHee g0 tEarr iit aNd tHr0w iiN thE dUsBiiN aNdd tEll miiE sHe l0stt itt niiA.. iiE tollD myyE jiiEmuii lErhhSxX.. dEyy pRomiiSe miiE tUu tAkkE rEvEngge!! jUstt eUu wAttChh oWtt.. sH00 stEwpiiD. eNvii miiE sCoRee bEttA dEnn eUu.. 38 iShh 38..

nEbbErmiiNd.. iiE nAo tHiinKiing oRff wAdd tUu wEarr tUu dErr piiCniiC wiiD deArrDearr. iiE bWiing myyE iiNsEctt rePellaNt.. anD alSoo bikiinii heEheeE feRr dEarDeaR c0shh hE sAee cAnn sUntAnn att b0tAnniikAll gArdenn.. hAppiiE niiAxX.. nEbbEr g0 piCniiC befErr.. iiE bUyyiiNg tHee f00d.. aNdd dEardEarr sAee hE bWiing bEer. yAyy iiE lyykKe tUu gEtt hiGhh niiAxX.. dRiinK lErr wiiL f0rgEtt myyE tRouBleS... aLL dErhh hEarttpAiin iiE fEel... hAiiS.. iiE eMo lErrHsXx.. wiiShh eUu iShh hEre tUu chEer miiE uP.. bUtt iiE n0ee iie iShh h0piiNg fErr tHe iMpoSsiBle oNlii.. nEbeRmiinD bAhhS.. dUnchh w0rriiE iie wiLL chEeR uP dErhhSxX.. eVeNn iiF iit tAkEss fErreVerr..

hAisHh. hAo bAhhS. g0iing tUu pUtt mYye al0E vErra mAskk dAtt deArrdEar bUyy fErr mE.. hE saEe my fAcE mAchiiAmm oiiL wEll niiAsXx.. bYebyeE..

*[[l0nggiiNgg fErr eUu sH0 bAddlyy.. h0piiNgg tUu bE iiN uRr aRmss aGaiin..]] ^^

FINALLY. ENJOY!!! IF YOU LIKE IT TELL ME COS IT GIVES ME MORE MOTIVATION TO CARRY ON WITH "The Adventures of xiiAo0 aii" :D

cute is what
I aim for too.

Monday, June 15, 2009

THIS IS THE FIRST DAY OF HOLIDAY YAY (kind of), considering the fact we had 2 extra weeks of lessons........ It was horrible, especially the day when there was lit and geepee time-based trials. So technically it was 5 hours of crouching over LT tables and just writing writing writing. And i came out of school with a horrible sore arm and back. Clicks "Dislike" on facebook.

But school had also been fun, because of fun people who keep me going :) but now thinking about it, i can't remember anything that i've laughed about in the past week except for the fact that QY and i continually victimised Reg........ which happens all the time anyway. HAHAHAHA. STILL, it's been nice :)

Council farewell was quite fun, although i think the rest came with higher expectations... I could tell the juniors really really really put in effort in planning the entire thing! Especially the dress up part which was \m/ and left all of us looking weird and gay but it was all in the name of fun hehehe. The clear winner was Fong lor, with the ultimate gay Lara Croft get up. Another highlight was me and Andy telling Inhwa about _ _ _ HAHAHAHA funny ttm........ I'm trying to remember the look on Inhwa's face so that i can laugh about it whenever i feel sad hahaha.

Cip was fun. But that's when my Suay Part III comes in....... It's seriously so suay i can't believe myself ): Reg you can stop laughing now.................... But cip with my group was quite fun especially when it's all track people like Hengwei Marc & Gracelyn. Hengwei can always make me laugh because he's like a natural clown i think. Idk how many times i've said this but i'll really miss track when i leave YJ ):

Now, in these 2 weeks of holz i really need to, 1. gather all my econz notes and start seriously mugging, 2. pack my cupboard of clothing and donate those i dont need anymore, 3. GET BACK MY SOCIAL LIFE.

I've finally like watched a movie, after 4 months.... So loserish but it's alright, i'm looking at watching 3 more movies this hols and i hope nothing stops me. Not even organic chemistry. NO.

Oh i just discovered something which i think is so !!!-able, but i can't share my joy with anybody because they'll just dismiss it as another of my think-too-much episodes. SO SIAN.

Anyway, here's a million dollar question: Does anybody think this blog needs pictures?

(Y) / (N) ? Tell me!

In any case life goes on. Am going to eat carrot cake + tutu kueh now to feel happy! :D

cute is what
I aim for too.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

One's real life is so often the life that one does not lead.
- Oscar Wilde

cute is what
I aim for too.

I'm so tired of school. I like school (because of the people), but.. I'm so tired of it. So ironic i know. I just need to do something fun and crazy to feel aliiiiiiiiiiive. Now i feel dead inside and i'm so tired. But now i take pleasure in making tea + 2 soft boiled eggs to eat before i go to school. Super uncle-style breakfast but i like! :)

I'm so tired, i really dont want to mug for geepee & lit. Dont think it'll make a difference if i studied anyway.

For now, listening to The Beatles make me feel happy. And we go,

So we sailed on to the sun,
Till we found the sea green,
And we lived beneath the waves,
In our yellow submarine

We all live in yellow submarine,
yellow submarine, yellow submarine,
We all live in yellow submarine,
yellow submarine, yellow submarine......

Dont laugh but i actually have a yellow submarine shirt hehehe. You know, one of those fake vintage tees off the pushcarts. Kewt mahsxzzzzzz.

Speaking of twit language, it's been a long time since i wrote a The Adventures of Xiia0 Aii post.......... Sigh.

cute is what
I aim for too.

Saturday, June 06, 2009

School has been getting better hahaha or so i think.

Had long conversations this week with the 2 most random people i know (seperately la) but it was good. Got to know them a lot better. Now looking back and thinking of it, i think it's quite funny that i'd even strike conversations with either hahahahaha.

The track team sent Mr Sara off on wednesday ): Sigh i'm going to miss Mr Sara so badly. No more sudden painful whacks on the back in school and hearing someone go, "Yes Miss Julia stand up straight!" or "Aunty Julia dont look so lifeless!" ): ): ): But the track team got to bond during send-off @ Changi Airport ( :D :D :D ) and i think i'm starting to miss the team a lot. I used to scold Hengwei for scolding vulgarities at everything but now i think i'd miss hearing him spew vulgarities when training stops......... How ironic.

QY and i went for brekkie on friday because we overslept and missed math lecture! Seriously funny shit because we did the exact same thing last year when we both overslept for june hols chem lecture as well HAHAHA. We're too similar i think.

Watching Reg, Andy and In Hwa (!!!) play inter-house has been damn fun and funny hahahaha. In Hwa made my (fri)day with his blooper plus his constant bitching about ___. HAHAHA funny ttm. And i'm glad the three of them won their matches :) Good on them, bad on me because i was 2nd time suay. Damn suay.............. ):

I'm bracing myself for the tough week ahead with the full lit paper to be done over two days, and a full gp paper as well. ESSAY INFLUX!!! I hope i survive... since there wont be doses of ___ for me. I think i need a major life overhaul or something. Everything's good and settled but something seems amiss. Something. Something that eludes me, something i can't really comprehend. Maybe you were right about me, Tatwai. Sigh.

Lastly i thank God for the friends i have in school that are worth keeping, for giving me the patience to deal with the fake people i meet in school, the friend who bothers to ask about me everyday, the friends in church whom i hope to grow old with, the friends whom i dont see so often but mean a great deal to me, the family which i dont really enjoy but help me to grow......... for everything. Thank You God.

I’m ready to live
I’m ready to dream
I’m ready for fear
And love and everything between (or so i hope.)

cute is what
I aim for too.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

): <- I shouldnt be feeling this way now because things are turning out to be better than expected, but why?

Anyway school has been good and i've been laughing a lot. At Reg mostly because she's a natural clown. Thank you Mrs Reg Chucky. A lot. Lurbe chew. Thank you Andy for listening to my ramblings about my horrible musings about ______, because thinking back now it seems so gross.

Sometimes i'm a brave girl and others i'm just the epitome of cowardice. So so so sad ): If only i had not ______ so that i would _______ then i wouldn't be feeling so upset because the situation would be completely different now. Oh welllllllllllllllllllllllllll. Why oh why.

We're having 2 extra weeks of lessons in place of block tests. I'm not really complaining really, maybe because i'm becoming increasingly indifferent to everything which is so sad sad sad as well. I have almost zero motivation to mug because my current sadness just brings about a myopic view of everything and i can't see where i'm headed anymore ):

I really ought to work hard enough to get my ass to FASS or Mass Comm or i'd just remain a bum for the rest of my life. Yeah I know it's so superficial to think that it'll be the end of my life or something if i dont get to uni but... can i be blamed for thinking this way? After all, i'm only a mediocre product of Sg's education system. Seriously i hate how society shapes too many of our perceptions. So much so that it becomes an unhealthy obsession trying be the paradigm of what is accepted. Sad sad sad ):

Anyway i'm quite determined to do well for the math retest and the lit time trials. But prep time for the tests seems increasingly short with the hectic weekends and procrastination time ha ha ha. Aiyo i really should procrastinate less.

THIS GSS IM GOING TO GET SOMETHING I REALLY REALLY LIKE. I HOPE.

Eggcited for cg outing + _____ hehehe nice.

But i'm still sad.

HUH.

cute is what
I aim for too.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

So much things happened during the weekend and these few days. It's like a major period of change. I dont really like this ):

And because organisation fails me, big time, i shall point-form my post!

Stepping down from council --> ):
I feel lost without the council. I know the rest think so too, when i see them at 735am, tapping their cards.
Stayover at In Hwa's house on Friday night was da bombz.
Spent my entire Saturday repaying my sleep debt. \m/
I love laughing with Zan on Sundays.. over nothing.

And school has been good, because...

I was a brave girl.
My breaks...
I love my schoolmates. They give me reason to come to school everyday.

But school has been bad because...

I dont get organic chemistry. I can't "appreciate the beauty" of it, like Mr Wong thinks we should.
I'm even losing interest in Lit (!!). This can prolly spell my doom.
I hate lectures. Like hate hate hate lectures. I absorb zero knowledge during lectures. Even if i can, i refuse to.
I have an Econs test on thursday and i havent started a single shit. Ought to be shot right.

Life's been good though, because...

I pray for strength sometimes.
Had a super long phone conversation with hacker heh heh heh.
I know i have friends i can count on.

I NEED AN ESCAPE. ):

cute is what
I aim for too.

Friday, May 22, 2009

INVESTITURE LATER. Having mixed feelings about it.

I'm glad to have laughed like shit today over some inter-house games signups thingy. HAHAHAHA it really made my day.

Anyway, i'm listening to the AI performance of Time After Time by Allison Iraheta & Cyndi Lauper repeatedly. Youtube ftw! Hahaha like we havent realised that huh. Best by far amongst all the other versions i've heard i think.

Idk why am i staying up so late also. I can't do my homework because i left my pencil box in school (excuses excuses........) HAHA.

AND TODAY I WAS A BRAVE GIRL (i think).

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me,
I can't hear what you've said
Then you say, go slow
I fall behind
And the second hand unwinds

cute is what
I aim for too.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Idk for what reason but i keep listening to Sum 41 repeatedly, shuffling between only 2 of their songs but it makes me feel a little sad now ):

*

School has been damn fun these days, and i'm going to enjoy all i can before i settle down to fully mug like shit. Finally had the awesomest of laksas again this week with QY & Reg! I miss laughing like shit with them, with QY's often mispronounced words like "GHOSTbumps" "mango saga". And me becoming a Physics (!!!) teacher to Gobi hahaha funny ttm.

With frequent council investiture rehearsals, the feeling of stepping down from council is really starting to kick in ): it's like we're all getting really attached to each other. When we're together we just put all our differences aside, work hard & play hard too. I really really can't bear to leave the 23rds. Not that we're literally leaving but... you know. The sour feeling chokes me up. I hope i dont cry on Friday.

Things are going to be really really different soon, and it's going to take a long time for me to adjust and actually settle down. No more council, less of track, no more Mr Sara to nag at me ): And just thought, i'm prolly gonna shift my mugging hideout closer home now onwards, for no particular reason.

Ok i'm not thinking coherently now, maybe because i'm damn bloody tired. Goodnight.

To - :
Hello - , what's wrong?
Is there something i dont know?
Because we used to tell each other everything.
And I kinda miss the way we were, just some time back.

):

cute is what
I aim for too.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

saving Thong says:
what u doing tml

Jules says:
going to meet (censored)

(waits expectantly for about 3 minutes...)

Jules says:
walao im like waiting for your rxn but, sigh.

saving Thong says:
hahhaahaa

saving Thong says:
cos i know its not going to be true

Jules says:
tskkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

Jules says:
ok fine.

Jules says:
brutally honest

saving Thong says:
hahhaha
___

Sadness ):

Anyway, went for cg after idk how long. Can't wait for cg outing!! Everything seems hopeful for now hehehe. Can't wait to hear Reg's report for the highly anticipated outing (??)! Yayzzzzzzzz. Happiness.

I'm going to quit procrastinating and start doing my lit essay. Yay.

cute is what
I aim for too.

Friday, May 15, 2009

I'm in a generally happy mood, even though i got a tall pile of homework, investiture rehearsals are damn long, i get barked at for no good reasons, my mum gets super paranoid (and it can get annoying.......).

But i remain happy.

Till end of june hols, i've promised myself! HEHEHEHEHEHE.

cute is what
I aim for too.